To my wife, my babi, my tangi, my baby, my lovey, my love, my princess, my dinowifey, my forever, my kakampi my Kalila, my Lila, my Anna, my Ezra, and my girlfriend....

Happy first monthsary, mahal ko. ♡

I honestly don't even know where to begin because there are so many things I want to tell you, and somehow even a thousand paragraphs would still feel like they aren't enough to explain how thankful I am that I get to have you in my life.

One month may sound small to some people, but to me, it means so much. It means one month of choosing each other, one month of learning more about each other, one month of creating little memories, and one month of having someone I can genuinely call my love. And honestly, I wouldn't trade this first month for anything.

I keep thinking about how crazy it is that out of all the people in this world, somehow our paths crossed. Somehow I met you. Somehow you became someone so important to me. And somehow, without even realizing it, you became one of the biggest and most beautiful parts of my life.

Thank you, mahal, for choosing me. Thank you for staying. Thank you for every conversation, every little moment, every laugh, every lambing, every random story, every good morning, every good night, every "I love you," every reassurance, every little thing you probably don't even realize means so much to me.

Thank you for making ordinary days feel special. Thank you for giving me someone I can look forward to talking to. Thank you for making me smile just because your name appeared on my screen. Thank you for being someone I can tell things to, someone I can be silly with, someone I can be soft with, and most importantly, someone I can call mine.

There are so many little things about you that I love. The way you talk, the way you react to things, your random thoughts, your kulit moments, your sweetness, your softness, your laugh, your smile, and even the little things you probably think are unimportant.

I love the version of you that is happy and excited. I love the version of you that gets clingy. I love the version of you that gets sleepy. I love the version of you that is being makulit. And I want you to know that I also love the version of you that isn't having the best day.

You never have to pretend to be okay around me. You never have to hide the parts of yourself that you think are difficult to love. I want all of you. The happy you. The tired you. The emotional you. The stubborn you. The soft you. The silly you. Every version of my Lila.

I am so grateful for all the memories we have already made together. Some of them might look small to other people, but to me, they are pieces of something I never want to forget.

And even though sometimes the distance makes things difficult, I want you to remember something: distance will never change where I am for you.

I may not always be physically beside you. I may not always be able to give you a hug when you need one, kiss your forehead when you're tired, hold your hand when you're nervous, or simply sit beside you without saying anything... but I will always be here.

Whenever you need someone, I want to be one of the people you know you can run to. Whenever you're tired, I want to be your safe place. Whenever you feel like everything is too much, I want you to remember that you don't have to carry everything alone.

You have me, okay? Your kakampi. Your person. Your annoying lover. Your babi. Your dinowifey's biggest fan. Your forever supporter. ♡

I hope you understand just how deeply I love you. Not just in the easy moments, but in all the moments in between. I love you when we're laughing together. I love you when we're missing each other. I love you when we're talking about absolutely nothing and somehow still don't want the conversation to end.

I love you in the quiet moments too. In the moments where there aren't enough words. In the moments where all I can really say is "I miss you." Because even those three words carry so much of what I feel for you.

And when we finally get to be together, I promise I'm going to make up for all the hugs that distance stole from us. I'm going to hug you for way too long, kiss you until you get shy, hold your hand, spoil you, pamper you, annoy you, make you laugh, and probably stare at you for a while because I still won't believe that I finally get to be beside you.

I want you to know that you are enough. You don't have to become someone else just to deserve love from me. You don't have to be perfect. You don't have to have everything figured out.

I love you as you are. With your good days. With your bad days. With your clingy moments. With your random moments. With your softness. With your stubbornness. With everything that makes you, you.

And if there are days when you forget how beautiful you are, let me remind you. If there are days when you think you're not enough, let me tell you otherwise. If there are days when you feel like nobody understands you, let me listen. If there are days when you don't feel loved, let me love you a little louder.

I want to be someone who makes you feel safe enough to be completely yourself. Someone you can talk to without being afraid of being judged. Someone you can laugh with, cry with, be quiet with, and share even the smallest details of your day with.

I am willing to do my best for you. Not because I expect something in return, but because you are someone worth trying for. Someone worth choosing. Someone worth understanding. Someone worth keeping.

You make everything feel worth it. The waiting. The distance. The difficult days. The overthinking. The little misunderstandings. Everything becomes easier knowing that at the end of it all, there's still you.

And I promise I will never get tired of reminding you how much you mean to me. Even if I've already told you a hundred times, I'll tell you again. Even if you've heard it before, I'll say it again. I love you. I choose you. I'm proud of you. I'm thankful for you. And I am so incredibly lucky to call you mine.

So thank you, my love. Thank you for existing. Thank you for entering my life. Thank you for giving me memories I can smile about. Thank you for giving me a reason to look forward to tomorrow.

I hope this is only the beginning. I don't want this to be our only monthsary. I want more. More months. More memories. More dates. More pictures. More calls. More random conversations. More "I miss you." More "I love you." More days where I get to call you mine.

I want to experience more of life with you. I want to see you grow. I want to see you achieve your dreams. I want to celebrate your victories, comfort you through your failures, laugh with you through the silly moments, and stand beside you through everything life decides to put in front of us.

I want to make more memories with you that one day we'll look back on and say, "Remember when we used to..." I want those little stories. I want those random pictures. I want those late-night conversations. I want those moments that only make sense to us.

And eventually, I hope we get to look back at this little website and laugh because we made it through all the distance and all the little challenges together.

I want you to know that no matter how many months pass, I never want you to feel like my love for you is becoming ordinary. I want to keep appreciating you. I want to keep learning you. I want to keep falling for you in all the little ways I haven't even discovered yet.

I love you so much, Anna Ezra Kalila. More than this page can explain. More than these words can hold. More than I probably know how to say.

If I could give you one thing through this little website, it would be the ability to see yourself through my eyes for just a moment. Maybe then you'd understand why I adore you so much. Maybe you'd understand why your smile means so much to me, why your voice can make my entire day better, and why simply knowing that you're there makes me feel incredibly lucky.

So for our first monthsary, I just want you to know one thing: I would still choose you.

Today. Tomorrow. On the easy days. On the hard days. When we're close. When we're far. When everything feels perfect. And even when everything feels messy.

I will keep choosing you.

And if somehow life gave me the chance to go back and choose again, knowing everything I know now, I would still find my way back to you. I would still choose my Lila. I would still choose my Anna. I would still choose my Ezra. I would still choose my kakampi. I would still choose you. Every single time.